Scene: Route 5, frm Wal-Mart to Transit centre.
ME - the lone passenger with bags overflowing with goodies to last me for rest of semester…cause I’m supposedly busy with no time for shopping for the remaining couple of weeks.
Mood: Exhilarating - Enjoying the lovely weather outside…rains ….its bliss.
And then ….
Bus stops at some stop …... and in walks an old ogre …. Greets the driver like he was his kin … and then the ugly green eyes looks at the lone passenger aboard and mutters “Huh …. BLACKS”….. sits behind and repeats the insinuating words yet again, with a higher decibel level, so that I do not miss those sound signals at any cost.
WAT the #$%#$%#$........I was shocked for a few seconds…. Agony engulfed me, and I like to believe it was natural. I am an individual and hav other characters to be associated with rather than caste, creed and color. And I’m dam proud of my origins. I love my country to no end and I’m happy to be black, if tats my color. But tats not the point here….. I was wondering why I was targeted to those racist words when all I was doin in there was be to myself. I fail to understand how poor me could have irritated this sophisticated “gentleman” to force him to hurl those words at me. The worst part was I just let him go …. I just ignored him…maybe I had no guts to start a duel thr… SHAME ON ME :(
It made me realize … yet again… that I don’t belong here… my home beckons me to return …. Will I \wont I?? I dunno…..there are so many other obstacles and reasonings that go behind tat decision…... nevertheless, in those minutes of jouney bak home on the bus, I recollected all my cherished memories – parents, sis, cousins, aunts, uncles, friends, ….. I was adored, pampered and most of all loved back there …..I was not a stranger….. I walked on the roads as if they belonged to me…..I talked, laughed and cried without qualms …. as I knew my dear ones were with me- rite next to me…. Was I a fool to give it all up and come here ….
This reflecting mood lasted as long as I landed home. And then I remembered I was hungry…. so I let the old blot die a condemned death in my thoughts…and got set to prepare dinner…
Now, as I write this, I feel it was not a big deal…. There are many more nice people I have met out here, so why shd some silly old(probably drunk) idiot make me lose focus on wat I’ve come here for!!! Oh come on, I’m made of stronger and sterner stuff….and will face all odds .. no matter wat. Yes I will and god help me in tat [-o< ... Amen.
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